February 4th – 15th 2018: Avoiding My Annual Late January Through Mid-March Depression

February 4th – 15th 2018: Avoiding My Annual Late January Through Mid-March Depression

I am still playing around with this new (to me) medium of collage. I buy two giant books on collage in modern art but don’t open them because I know myself & I am afraid if I see really amazing & powerful collages by artists who are far more talented, experienced & patient than I am my inner perfectionist will appear and I’ll become discouraged. All I want from this new medium right now is to experiment and allow myself to be playful, to try something different than my usual taking and editing of photographs. So the books remain wrapped in their plastic under all the magazines I am carefully cutting my way through. Continue reading “February 4th – 15th 2018: Avoiding My Annual Late January Through Mid-March Depression”

About Gold & Joy

About Gold & Joy

This is where I tell my stories – crafting the darkness & the light, trying to make & keep a record of my journey through this human life. I do this through words and through photographs. This is this journal of the moments I live and the art I create.

I’m a twenty-something from Pittsburgh, PA who has lived in Bellingham, WA & Saint Louis, MO. I currently reside in Birmingham, AL because my husband, Edward, is attending medical school here. He’s an M2 right now we’ll be moving to Montgomery, AL in May for his M3 & M4 years. After that – who knows where for residency. I really, really hope it’s somewhere we both like living.

In college I studied Women, Gender & Sexuality Studies and Creative Writing at Washington University in St Louis. I didn’t quite finish my degree because I had to take a lot of medical leaves of absence but I learned a lot and met a few pretty awesome people.

I really want to live in Santa Fe someday, the southwestern landscape inspires me and I feel like my favorite version of myself in it.

We have two dogs – Sam & Lena – a great dane & a chihuahua mix who you will see on this blog a lot. I also have a lot of houseplants. I love photography, playing around with collaging, caffeine, acroyoga, burning incense, reading, video calling with my friends who are in other parts of the country, urban jungles, writing & letting fresh air into our apartment.



Cycles: Connecting & Disconnecting

Cycles: Connecting & Disconnecting

We run away to the beach for a weekend after Edward finishes an exam. Everything is great – we are an easy walk from the ocean waves, we can see them from our AirBNB’s balconies during the day. We eat delicious food. I learn I love calzones. We watch documentaries curled up on the sofa at night. I buy a large mason jar with a little garden in it – an aloe plant, a baby cactus shaped like a pincushion, an air plant, a chunk of crystal quartz – at a quirky beachside pottery shop. We walk along the beach. Lena loves the beach – she runs in circles in the soft white sand, kicking it up behind her, avoiding the waves. I worry about her getting older sometimes, how she’s gotten a bit less nimble, and it’s great to see her running full tilt here and truly enjoying herself. We feel like us again for the first time in a while. We’re on the same page. Then on the last day while we’re walking on the beach Edward starts telling me how hard the next few months will probably be, how stressed and busy he is going to be because his Step 1 exam is coming up in April and he needs to study study study for that on top of his usual brutal schedule of medical school quizzes & exams. I start to crumble thinking about the months ahead too. Continue reading “Cycles: Connecting & Disconnecting”

Southwest Trip Photos Become Collages

I had a bunch of photographs from our road trip last summer hanging in our kitchen but tonight I decided to take them all down & turn some of them into collages. I wrote on collages for the first time. Only on a scrap of paper on the first, because I was afraid of ruining it, then I decided to risk it and went a bit too heavy-handed with writing directly all over the third.


I’m trying my hand at a new medium.

Photography has started to feel a bit stale to me and I’ve completely lost interest in my most recent passion, fashion photography, so I am trying my hand at collage. Here are two that I made last night. It’s scary to try a new medium when one has been “your medium” for so long – you have to accept that you won’t be great at it (you might even be really bad at it at first lol) but without new experiences & playfulness my creativity dies so here are two collages I made last night. Photography rather ironically crept back into this process because the collages were too big to fit in my scanner. I’m just letting myself enjoy the playfulness of trying a new creative pursuit and not letting my (rather loud) inner critic win. I like working with materials with my hands for a change.